Ellie's Feelings Deli

I've been struggling for the past... Heck, it's been almost two months. For the past six weeks I've had a crushing weight on my mind that hasn't seemed to go away until today. This afternoon, actually. Life has been a whirlwind of busy work for the past two weeks, what with finals for the past forever, and so I've had little time to regard things that aren't homework, exams, papers, and notes. But... Tonight I feel... Calm. Calmish, I should say. I don't have the blessing of total relaxation because I'm an insecure teenage girl and I hate waiting for a return text. Because that totally matters tonight, haha. Christmas has always been super exciting, right? You want to sleep next to the tree and catch Santa putting all the presents there, and you wake up before the sun to see what the fat man with the beard brought you. This year is different, though. This year I'm grown up. *gulp* At first I thought it was just me, but talking with friend

I only have ten minutes before my computer shuts me out and I want to see how much cool and coherent information I can fit in this blog post. First off, Winter Formal! That was Saturday. It was an enjoyable senior year experience. For us, at least. Then church. Church is always great. I always love church. Even when I hate everyone in the world I still get some enjoyment out of church. So it was a good weekend. I got to bear my testimony in Young Women's and then after church I successfully did not fall asleep, until around 7 PM... Then my mom came and woke me up at 10 PM and made me go sleep on my bed and not on the couch. MOOOooooom... Yesterday night was lovely. I went out with my lovely Becca (pictured above) after visiting my friend Avie at work (she works at a coffee shop, so hardcore). We went to Wal-Mart like the thugs we are and walked around and talked about dudes (hot dudes, ugly dudes, lame dudes, famous dudes, etc.) and then talked about dudes some more a